Merry Christmas to all......but what about me?---

This is insane.  I love this time of year, Christmas is wonderful.  I love the decorations, trees, brightly wrapped packages, twinkling lights, music, food, atmosphere and the movies.  My wife has every version of "It's A Wonderful Life" ever made.  Original, colorized, 3-D, closed captioned, French version, cartoon version you name it.  We were hooked the first year that "A Christmas Story" came out and have to watch it and Wonderful Life at least 3 times each.  I can honestly say that all other Christmas movies leave me cold and the cartoon of anything to do with the Grinch or Rudolph is a big no.  I will say that National Lampoon's Christmas with Chevy Chase and Randy Quaid (the fugitive) is still one of my favorite movies.  If all this is true, why am I about to slash my wrists with anxiety? 

This happens every year and I've gotten worse with it every year.  As much as I mean all the things I said earlier about the wonders of the holidays, I can't wait for them to be over.  It is so different from when your a kid.  I see this in the eyes of my grand children as they remind me of how long it took for Christmas to get here.  Everyday seemed to last a month.  Now the time flys by and I realize that I haven't done anything to prepare for all this.  I think this is because the younger you are, the smaller the world is and the only thing that consumes your mind is yourself and Santa.  If I could only go back and feel that way now....that would be something.  One of my main problems is that I am lazy.  I see all the wonderful work so many people do this time of year for so may others and it makes me feel guilty for being such a slug.  What to do about this?  I've narrowed my expecations down to two things.  The Utes winning their bowl game and Max Hall getting his ass kicked.  There...I feel better already.

HO HO HO to all except Tiger Woods.  He has had too many HO's already!